Boy Bye!

Something out of the norm happened yesterday afternoon, which brings me here today…

Its been over 3 years since the discovery of my husband having an affair.

Yes, we are still together. I have stood by his side through thick and thin. We are way passed the trauma of it all, yet, dont get me wrong, I have some ill-feelings towards it all that I dont think will ever go away, its something I continue to work on. I just dont let it eat me alive anymore. As for my husband, I really think he doesnt go there in his mind at all, like, lets not ever bring it up.

Anyhow, we truly are in a happy place. I am even expecting another child with this man. Yup, we are having our third baby – coming February 2018.

So, to get to the point. Yesterday, on my way home from work, I ran into Crusty (the chump who joined in with his scuzzy slut and they would all have threesomes with my husband). In all fairness, the couple times they did it all together he thought that was all that was going on, was him, her and my husband doing their disgustingness. So when I pointed out that she was also continuing an affair with my husband behind his back as well, it was new news to him in a sense. Anyways, I have not ran into Crusty since I found all this trash out in 2014. So yesterday,  he saw me at the gas station. He smiled and said whats up. HUH??? Like wtf? Like we cool….um….did I miss something??!!!! I have imagined if I ran into him all the ratchet shit I would spit at him. It didnt go down like that tho. I just looked at him with a cricked, disgusted half smile and raised my eye brows.. He put his head down as if kinda ashamed of my response. …Keep it moving!

After, I hollered at a couple of my friends who know of the affair and let it be known I had just ran into him and that he had the audacity to act as tho we was cool. I got two completely different responses. One was like ” wtf! Why would he think he could even try and approach you as if you were all good” and the other said “well, you have stood by your husbands side. Its time you get over it and maybe be friendly back”.

….I get that I dont need to cause a scene and go all ratchet on his ass anymore but be friendly…oh hell naw! And altho his whore was betraying him as well, he also played a huge part in it by joining them. The pain they all caused to my world will never be forgotten. Yes, I have stuck by my husbands side. He was worth it to me to try and fix his wrong doings.  Crusty and Scuz will never get a second chance with my friendship. They are irrelevant, non-mother fucking factors to my life and just because it has been years since all that shit doesnt mean my feelings towards them have changed what so ever!!

“If I see you and I dont speak, that means I dont fuck with you” 100!!!

Happy – Go – Lucky

Ok – so … Christmas sure was exceptionally nice!!

“Exceptionally” – I don’t know why I say that because in all actuality, my holidays are generally good.

I don’t need to have a faithful husband, shoot, I don’t need to have a husband at all to enjoy life. Specially when it comes to having fun with my kids… it comes natural to smile with them. My kids are one of my main source of happiness.

Yes, of course, my husband was a source of happiness to me as well. And I guess he still is in a way, however, I can see clearly now the rain is gone 😛

As I am forced to analyze our relationship, I totally get that I combined our feelings. I thought they went hand-in-hand. When he was sad, I felt kinda sad. When he was happy – it made my heart happy.  I recognize now, my happiness, really has nothing to do with him. Momentarily – yes.  Infinitively –  not what so fucking ever.

Its all me baby!

I know I will be happy with or without him or any man, no matter what situation I am dealt with because I always make the best out of whatever I have. That’s why people are always jealous of me or knocking me off – because even if what I have really isn’t anything special, I make it THE SHIT!!!

Like a boss 😉