How can I forgive, when it hurt so much?!?
Forgiveness isn’t logical – it’s about love. And like love itself – it cannot be earned, bought, bargained or forced – it can only be inspired. So what on earth can inspire you to do something as difficult as forgiving a cheater? Only one thing… True Love. Therefore, the real miracle is not forgiving – but loving someone enough to forgive.
WTF does love have to do with it??
I have loved my husband UNCONDITIONALLY! To the point he was too comfortable..
Yet, my husband didn’t even love me enough not to fuck some scab!
So fuck loving him enough to forgive! HE chose what our marriage has become so for now, he gets what he gets.. and really, at some point, if he gets tired of my love not being so “truly, madly, deeply”, like it was before, then so be it. My heart has already been broken, what ever he does from here on out, will not hurt as bad as that first blow because I have my guard up and my armor on.
I mean, yes, I would like to hope years from now, that I have takin my armor off and allowed my husband back in, where I am trusting, loving, and with out a doubt all in.. And yes, of course, if that ends up happening and he betrays me again, Yes, that shit would hurt, but for now…I am doing what I have to do to protect myself and I am fully armored, guarded and prepared to fire.
As you can see..
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell,
and I don’t have time To go ’round and ’round and ’round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself
to do what it is You think I should..
..Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heels everything
I’m still waiting…