Sick and tired of being sick and tired..
Too much anger.
All this sadness.
This pain … hurts!!
I hate the way I am treating my husband (although he deserves it). It makes me sad to force such hate towards him. And to say such hurtful things to him. I love him but I hate him for what he has done. Yet, I feel so wrong being so mean.
I cant stand the change that is taking over my every thought and my daily moves.
So… I QUIT!
I will no longer allow this destructive bitterness to be apart of my life anymore!!!
God I hope I am strong enough to push away the nasty thoughts and unbearable pain that are taking over my life…
I know I will have triggers or what not, but when they do occur, I wanna just “give them the bird” and move on. I have to stop reacting to it all in a negative way.
It’s getting the best of me and fuck that!
One day at a time…
I got this.